
Synopsis from Publisher's Weekly:
The last normal moment that Mia, a talented cellist, can remember is being in the car with her family. Then she is standing outside her body beside their mangled Buick and her parents' corpses, watching herself and her little brother being tended by paramedics. As she ponders her state (Am I dead? I actually have to ask myself this), Mia is whisked away to a hospital, where, her body in a coma, she reflects on the past and tries to decide whether to fight to live. Via Mia's thoughts and flashbacks, Forman (Sisters in Sanity) expertly explores the teenager's life, her passion for classical music and her strong relationships with her family, friends and boyfriend, Adam. Mia's singular perspective (which will recall Alice Sebold's adult novel, The Lovely Bones) also allows for powerful portraits of her friends and family as they cope: Please don't die. If you die, there's going to be one of those cheesy Princess Diana memorials at school, prays Mia's friend Kim. I know you'd hate that kind of thing. Intensely moving, the novel will force readers to take stock of their lives and the people and things that make them worth living.
Overall . . .
This story was more of a "lemme sit you down and tell ya what happened last week" story than an organized novel. There are no chapters in this book, just a continual flow of dialog broken periodically by time references that held no meaning for me (i.e. 7:35AM) because I didn't really care how long she had been in a coma; I more just wanted to know what would happen next, who would be visiting her in the upcoming section, and what we would learn about her past. From the beginning, I was intrigued by the plot: within a few pages her entire family is out on a snowy bank, covered in blood, with the car on its side a few feet away. Definitely a quick start.
The Bad . . .
A few things really bugged me. First, everyone in her family seemed a little too "good." Even her friend, Kim, fit into a little box of "bitchy yet sweet" or something like that. And although I liked the vignettes about various people, I was sometimes bored as if wondering "have I heard this already?" because by about halfway through the book, I could have told you the story. Let's see, Mia is going to have another Cello experience, Adam will show how cool and collected he is, Kim will blow off steam on someone, her mom will be unusually punk rockish for a woman with two kids, and her dad will be overcoming his rocker past.
The other thing that bothered me was the ending. Not to give away any spoilers, but despite the fact that Mia seemed perfectly set on her decision to stay/leave (not giving that away here!), it was very obvious she had no real explanation as to why. There was no surprise in the end when she at the last minute changed her mind. Because of that, I did not cry at all in the book, more just rolled my eyes and said "c'mon already, we know what you're actually going to do, Mia."
Finally, although this won't bother a lot of readers, I was a little miffed by some of the sexual content in the book. I would have loved to suggest this book to teens I know because of the thought-provoking ideas in the book, but I wouldn't want to give a young girl a book that encourages high school aged sex with guys you have just met. So that was definitely a negative to me. (If this book was not in the Young Adult section, I would not even mention this.)
The Good . . .
Despite my negativity above, I will say that there were many good things in this book. I like Forman's idea to show a young girl at the brink of womanhood suddenly finding herself in an out-of-body experience where she has in an instant lost so many things she holds dear. And at first, I truly wondered what she would do in the end, seeing that staying in her life without her family would be very painful. I love the coma-victims-can-see-whats-going-on idea. Very clever and eye-opening.
Secondly, Forman's voice was super fun and quirky. Mia has a lot of spunk. I especially love that she is obsessed with the cello. I love music and I wish that I could play the cello and date a rocker and all of that. Very cool. I also really liked Adam, her boyfriend. He had more depth than some of the other characters; you're never quite sure what he's going to say and that's how it should be I think.
Finally, although her characters weren't immensely complex, they were very fun and lovable. And I will confess I walked around the house, cooked meals, fed the baby and worked in the church nursery while reading the If I Stay. And I don't do that unless I'm really enjoying a book.
Summary . . .
Gayle Forman's If I Stay was fun, quirky and filled with intriguing stories and thought-provoking topics, but because of the predictable ending, I give this book a 3 out of 5 stars.